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M istika, I turned fifteen. I'm an optimist, but it wouldn't hurt for me to be a lil' bit pessimistic. Yes, I'm abnormal, period.
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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
today is the eve of RAYE [: yay! can enjoy . i took a loooong nap just a moment ago . i can assure you that i can't sleep tonight [: anyways, i got house chores to do, so i won't get tired easily . [: so, that nap was worth while [: i think that's it. i want to change skin liao . [: ahaha, i should . off to browse through very very attractive blog sleeves [: Monday, September 29, 2008
stupid banging noises -.- anyways, here is the list of people who wish to see me dress in . FLORENCE; dress & heels, any colour . SERI; black pants with a white shirt & with a short hair-do . BILA; everything & anything in orange . BENJAMIN; a dress/in skinnies ALI; dracula outfit, never happen . SHAMSUL; a dress i think . LESMIN; a dress . SIHUI; a skirt . JUSTIN; p.e attire, -.- okayy . FATIHA; a lime green dress. HANNAH; a black dress MARTIN; skimpy outfit -.- never happen . SHILI; a dress, hot pink . SHI HAU; a dress . JONATHAN; a blue dress, no colour sense, kidding [: so basically, majority wants me to wear a dress . i'll see first people, i'll be caught dead wearing a dress [: ahaha . Sunday, September 28, 2008
i have done two types of cookies for hari raye . i love baking [: so you people out there, must visit my house more often [: ahahahha, i'm flattering myself . oh well, who the hell cares ?! NAZIRAH, cheer up okay ! it'll be over . let's make this last for-ever ❤ Friday, September 26, 2008
i love this song [: hehe, its not full, but its just the chorus . someday by steve earle, enjoy [: someday i'll put her on the interstate and never look back [: Thursday, September 25, 2008
thanks guys, for the taggs on the .. tagbox, hahahah. it really helped, thanks for the support [: you guys rock . tomorrow is like, the first paper for EOY. oh shit, ihaven'tstudy . god, i'm gonna die ! no, no, must stay positive . logging off, laptop bag gonna die liao [: as you can see, i have gotten over the matter by being my hyper self again, i forgot to return my library book, damn ... [: Tuesday, September 23, 2008
venting my anger, yet again . ignore the part where i got hit by the takraw . that part was afiq's fault . flood my tagbox, its a good thing to clarify, BILA & ATIKAH you did nothing wrong, yeah you say you care, but i don't see it . i don't see you two being the good friends you lot claim to be, the ones who care, making an effort to show it . for example, a good friend would ask the other party whether he/she would like to join them. forget that part, if you do get it, kudos to you . i sound like a spoilt brat, yeah, that's how i am. there's a lot more things you lot haven't get to know yet . i am sensitive, but i don't show it, cause i know somehow i'll get over it . i get jealous easily, but i keep it to myself, cause i know its not worth it . i don't think you noticed, but if you do, kudos to you as well . you see? i've made my point . thanks for clarifying the things i needed to know, now i got to settle things with Hanis -.- like i said, hate me, start a petition about me. btw, it all started when we didn't hang with you people were hanging with Afiq And Hanis, i didn't go over, cause i know Hanis was angry at me, so i left you all alone . & you all looked like you 4 were having fun, so i decided not to spoil it. yeah, that's my job, spoiling the fun for you guys. ponder about your actions . fine, i'll post . i'll vent my anger in here [: hello . to that someone, if you fail, not my problem. you already found another tutor, i noticed . good luck . you'll need all the help you can get. you don't need me, i don't need you . heck, i don't need al of you anti-social crap.. shut it, you don't care. yeah, don't . cause it doesn't really matter, your just another piece of my puzzle, its called life . i'm not your big sis anymore, so yeah, show her your undivided attention. i'm not appreciated . especially not by you lot . i got kicked by the takraw ball just now, you all saw, but did you care, i don't think so ?! i don't expect you lot to rush towards me, i don't ask much, but at least, ask, "are you okay" ? if you were a good friend, i'm pretty sure you would ask that . just forget it, it can't solve anything . yeah, i might not say this things straight into you people's faces, but at least i've got guts, guts to type this . yeah, spread rumours, i don't care. my world revolves around them. if its not true, i'm sorry. i'm just upset, upset with the way i've acted . - to HANIS, BILA, ATIKAH . bid farewell to our almost-completed friendship . its all over, all gone . Monday, September 22, 2008
its complicated, i don't wanna talk about it . leave it be, best not relive the past. i'll find another fairytale to live in . Saturday, September 20, 2008
        yesterday's G.N.O was exciting [: ahahahaha, look at the pictures ! a picture paints a thousand words, these are just a few hundred . Thursday, September 18, 2008
its a friday people . gonna meet Alyssa & gang, later for buke [: at tampines. woots . today was fun, i guess. if it wasn't for HAKEEM and HANIS and SYAFIQIN and HAZIQ and SHAMSUL and ALI and RIZAN ! so many guys -.- ahaha, tutored HANIS and HAKEEM, but then turned out quite ugly, cause HANIS merajuk, then it was my fault . actually, it wasn't mine. but its okay, i'll take the blame . heck . i am now posting, the cause of boredom . -.- & now, i'm ending it . I don’t want to lead you on No But the truth is I’ve grown fond Yeah Everyone knows it’s meant to be Falling in love, just you and me ‘til the end of time It’ll happen I’ve been making lots of plans Like a picket fence and a rose garden I just keep on dreaming But it’s cool cause we’re just friends Small talk on IM Just one word sentences It’s cool we’re just friends If I had my way We’d talk and talk all day Yeah Everyone knows it’s meant to be Falling in love, just you and me ‘til the end of time ' It’ll happen I’ve been making lots of plans Like a picket fence and a rose garden I just keep on dreaming But it’s cool cause we’re just friends Thinking about how We’re gonna say our vows It’s cool we’re just friends I see all my friends smile Cause now we’re more than friends Everyone knows it's meant to be Falling in love, just you and me ‘til the end of time ‘til I'm on her mind It'll happen We've been making lots of plans Like a picket fence and a rose garden I'll just keep on dreaming Just keep on thinking of when we used to be just friends we were discussing about brasuers during English today . suddenly the word Triumph came up. then the first thing Martin told me was, the brand. the bra brand -.- then he couldn't help himself, so he had to tell it to the whole class. so it became the hot topic [: Justin asked me to post this, so here i am posting it [: Sabrina, i'm on your side . after school, went TM. with Yani, Siti, Afiq, Zai and Jonathan. was like awkward silence . so i decided to play truth or dare. at the open plaza [: the day is saved ! so played played played, then went home at 1700 hrs. so here i am, posting . off to phone Alyssa up . Wednesday, September 17, 2008
pictures will be posted at a later date. casue right now, i am currently lazy to upload those things [: too obsessed with studying. crazy, ain't it ? -.- i don't wanna talk about the exams, it was not really enjoyable. duh, its exams. i'm psycho [: just came back from the Geylang Bazaar [: i am now dehydrated . -.- bought Ramly burger [: hehehs, can't help it. i am now home, posting this . SHAM, you look cute, like small boy. ahahahah . oh yeah, the guys got a haircut today . DEXTER, i'm sorry. JUSTIN, i'm sorry. its okay, its just hair people ! Monday, September 15, 2008
yay, i just came back from Nabila's house it was fcking fun lar ! took pictures, but no time to upload yet . cause all the pictures are with her . [: hehehs, later lar, or maybe tomorrow. i will ask her for the pictures, then send it to my phone . then i will upload in to BLOGGER & FRIENDSTER . [: i love the Internet. and the Phone. basically, Technology rocks. which reminds me, i haven't finish reading my book yet. Deadline : 25 September . and i having History tomorrow, still got time to go online and blog . Syabas Syabas, quoted by Adli [: i am drawing even closer to him, that is cool ! eh, you ppl out there, don't think so far . friends only lar, he likes someone else, i know you know who i know lar .. oh yeah, that one quoted by _ _ _ _ _ _ [: for me to know, for you to find out. anyways, Bila asked me to post this, beware, i had nothing to do with this [: hehehs, today, me, Atikah, Bila & Yani were on our way to the Kembangan station. so Bila and Yani decided to ride the bike, which was Bila's. so me and Atikah were walking on our own lar . so suddenly we didn't know how it happened, Bila & Yani fell off the bike ! ahahah, it was entertaining, but we helped them up okay ! the auntie, stare at them. think what? FREE SHOW IS IT ?! the nerves of some people. that one, quoted by Syafiqin, which, i think, is angry with me. I THINK ! i'm facing this problem, i keep typing oaky instead of okay. see the difference ? ahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahaah, joker. i'm giving up hope on you . just a feeling . Sunday, September 14, 2008
hey people, check this out [: حب بنفسي. i 爱自己。 Ik houd mij. i amour moi-même. Ich liebe selbst. i piace me. i は自分を愛してください。 i love 직접. i adoro, eu próprio. amarme a mi misma. i love myself [: Saturday, September 13, 2008
THE WHO Who is in the house with you? : my mum, my sister . Who was the last person to IM you? : Atikah, Mirah . Who are you thinking about now? : That Love Bug . Who did you last talk to on the phone? : Hanis/Afiq . Who was your favorite teacher? : hmmm, Mrs Raihana ? random lar . Who's birthday is next? : Rizan Jumpstyle, Zi Chang Boyfiee, Carlyn Fishball . Who was the last person you told you love them? : Huiwen . Who do you wish you were with right now? : That Love Bug, my friends . Who's your favorite relative? : ahahahaha, Abang Aman, Kak Linda, The Liliputians. THE WHERE Where are you schooling? : Tampines Sec . Where do you live? : Ubi . Where is your phone? : Beside me . Where are your parents? : Mother, in her room, Father, JB . Where do you sleep? : My wonderful bedroom . Where do you shop the most? : The Mall . Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? : its my sister's Where did you last take a car ride to? : to school . Where in your house are you? : my room . What was the last thing you ate? : Cadbury . What was the last thing you drank? : Water . What color pants are you wearing? : Black . What kind of cell phone do you have? : Sony Ericsson . What is the closest item near you that is blue? : My marker . What is your favorite colour? : white, green, purple, ORANGE ! What messaging service do you use? : Singtel -.- What is your most used away message? : heh ? What is your favorite website? : Friendster . What is your favorite shoe brand? : Converse . Nike . What do you wear more; jeans or shorts? : Shorts . What is the last movie watched? : Meet Dave . What song do you currently hear? : That's What You Get . THE WHY Why are you taking this survey? : Boredom . Why do you have a xanga? : no . Why does basically half the world have a myspace? : i dont know . Why are your best friends your best friends? : cause they just are . Why is wood brown? : ask Mother Nature Why do the people on the news repeat the same stuff over & over? : they're just plain stupid . The When's When did everyone become obsessed with Friendster? : just leave them alone . When did you start school? : age threee . When did you meet your good friend? : it was a long time ago . When did you last go to the mall? : hmmm, i don't know . When did you last buy a new pair of pants? : i don't know . When did you last burn a candle? : i don't know . When were you last at school? : yesterday [: When did you last see your dad? : this morning When did you last take a shower? : just a moment ago . Thursday, September 11, 2008
i was wrong, i did pass . thanks to that 0.5 marks, i got an eleven [: thanks, syukur! today had tutoring session with HAKEEEM ! woots, that adorable boy . picked the weirdest place, the playground. but it was better actually, nice place to study at. serious . its better for me to study at a playground then at a library. tooo quiet -.- anyways, i think i better focus on myself too, cause its just by fluke that i passed . why is life complicated ? -.- ANNOUNCEMENT ! will be holding up study groups on HISTORY/MATHS/SCIENCE/GEOGRAPHY but mostly MATHS/SCIENCE/GEOGRAPHY. i'll just help out with your HISTORY, because my HISTORY sucks too . yeah, so please contact me, and leave your name while you're at it . valid to only TPSS SECONDARY ONE STUDENTS ! please & thank you [: i sound like a teacher -.- Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Friend 1: SYAFIQIN ! Friend 2: HANIS ! Friend 3: BILA ! Friend 4: SITI ! Friend 5: FLORENCE! Friend 6: ALI ! Friend 7: SHAMSUL. Friend 8: THAT LOVE BUG . Why is the person in spot 1 there? ` because he's my "brother" Have you ever hugged 6? ` no, not yet [: Out of your top 8, who was the last one you road in a car with? ` none . ahahha . When was the last time you talked to 2 on the phone? ` i talked to him just this afternoon . How do you know 8? ` he's my crush [: school . Is 2 taken or single? ` he's better be single . How did you meet 1? ` we met through sms, serious . but he's in my school . Would 4 & 5 make a good couple? ` yeah, netballers ! What about 1 & 3? ` i don't think so.. bahahah . When was the last time you kissed 1? ` i have never, but he owes me a hug ! What is your favorite thing about 6? ` ahaha, he's jokes. What about 7? ` he's explanations [: What does 4 usually ask you for? ` ahahah, she doesn't . seldomly . Who do you think is the funniest of your top 8? ` ALI ! Who is your favorite to talk to when you're down? ` syafiqin, bila, that love bug . Would you ever date 1? ` i don't mind [: Describe 8 in 3 words? ` hot hot, and hot [: Does 7 have any siblings? ` yeah . What are the last three numbers of 3's phone number? ` wait, 308 :D What would you do with 5 if you were locked in a room with him/her? ` talk about life, get hyped up . Out of your top 8.. who is better looking? ` honestly, no. 8. ahahah, that love bug . its for hanis, boredom . its a tuesday . nothing really happened lar. front gate duty, got a glimpse of That Love Bug, slack, then science. after science, malay. after malay, recess. tutored hanis maths, then went up to class. after recess was history. mr mak was shouting when we reached class. lucky never kena yellow form . anyways, i think thats it lar . off to watch first class [: Monday, September 8, 2008
history. is. killing. me. i. tell. you. i think i'm gonna fail, wait, i know i'm gonna fail . shit . i need to study more . i think its possible, cause its the fasting month. get more time to study during recess than to eat [: yes, i can grow thinner . but i'll get back to the same shape as before [: its true, i experimented with my body before. don't believe, go do it yourself. fast like us, then eat again . it works ! go try it today ! hehes, gone psycho. i finally know how to spell it ! wooo, congrats to MISTIKA [: Sunday, September 7, 2008
He and I had something beautiful But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last I loved him so but I let him go 'Cause I knew he'd never love me back Such pain as this Shouldn't have to be experienced I'm still reeling from the loss, Still a little bit delirious Near to you, I am healing But it's taking so long 'Cause though he's gone And you are wonderful It's hard to move on Yet, I'm better near to you. You and I have something different And I'm enjoying it cautiously I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard To get back to who I used to be He's disappearing Fading suddelly I'm so close to being yours Won't you stay with me Please Near to you, I am healing But it's taking so long 'Cause though he's gone And you are wonderful It's hard to move on Yet, I'm better near to you. I only know that I am Better where you are I only know that I am Better where you are I only know that I belong Where you are Near to you, I am healing But it's taking so long Though he's gone And you are wonderful It's hard to move on Near to you, I am healing But it's taking so long 'Cause though he's gone And you are wonderful It's hard to move on Yet, I'm better near to you. Yet, I'm better near to you. ahhh, i did not eat my breakfast this morning . so i'll probably be starving and whatnot . hmm, let's see. today's a sunday, so tomorrow must be a MONDAY! back to school, again -.- but, let's look at the positives&negatives of this hatred day . POSITIVES : 1E1 Petition [: Get Hyper With Florence & others. Get Random with people [: Retrieve hugs from friends ! Give away hugs to friends ! Share gossips with Alyssa & other gossipers [: Sing out loud again [: Slack during English. Story- tell about camp. Front gate duty ! Fast with people, who fast . Catch a glimpse of that Love Bug . NEGATIVES : stupid english stupid english stupid history stupid mt stupid english stupid art stupid art nagging teachers. berita harian . straits times. lessons -.- so basically, i have more positives that negatives. the points in the negative column are repeated, if you didn't notice [: so, there you have it . & btw, if you're wondering who the hell is that Love Bug, its for me to know, for you to find out [: btw, we're not a couple . i think that's it . Saturday, September 6, 2008
sorry guys, lazy to reply your taggs on the tagbox. so, here are your replys, specially engraved in my posts [: hehehes. MISTIKA.love to Yuheng : thanks, will be tagging soon . MISTIKA.love to ★hannah: thanks, see you then . MISTIKA.love to NICHELLE: thanks, will be tagging back [: MISTIKA.love to ♥Florence: yo florence, imy too! thanks . i think that's it . off to sign a petition . i mean, literally. no kid . Friday, September 5, 2008
i simply love my blogskin [: thanks SACCHARINElove! you simply rock [: keep up the good work. & to Lavelle, yeah sure, why not [: go ahead [: anyways, i got a message from Florence that my blog is dying, so here to revive it [: i added a teddy bear with 4 songs in it ! ain't it cute ? oh, here is the tracklist . 1- Australia - Jonas Brothers 2- Breakout - Miley Cyrus 3- Near To You - A Fine Frenzy 4- Don't Ask Why - Vanessa Hudgens hehhes, will be changing the songs when i have the time . right now i need to find recipes for my muffins. baking them for my teacher, its her birthday today [: HAPPY BIRTHDAY USTAZA FATIMAH ! must be colour co-ordinated [: hehehhes, i am lame . oh yeah, went to mustafa centre yesterday. we spent over ten bucks just for stationeries only . that's bunked . but still, so cheap . then i found this book which cost 16 bucks, from Cecilia Aburn i think . her name escapes me . i wanna buy, but currently saving money for something non-related to books/stationeries. then i also found this Qur'an which is translated into English, four bucks. i don't know whether the content is true . let's go, don't wait. this night's almost over let's make this last forever . |
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