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M istika, I turned fifteen. I'm an optimist, but it wouldn't hurt for me to be a lil' bit pessimistic. Yes, I'm abnormal, period.
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Sunday, March 29, 2009
I'd lie It's a Sunday bloody Sunday . Woke up bright and early today, in the morning of course, with an sms from Afiq flashing on my cell . Which Afiq you talking about ? Definitely not my ex . Had an urge to go jogging this morning, but I'm too afraid to cause I might just hurt myself . So, better safe than sorry . Dad & Mum dragged me to T-Mart, to go shopping for fisssssh, at the market . Before that, went to eat at Mukmin . That's one meal . After that , drove home . Did my prayers, watched teeeveee, swept the floor like how a good girl would ;DDDD * grins * Mum dragged me along to Tanjong Katong Complex, so changed back .____. watched CSI ! My eyes were so glued onto the teeeveee screen. Like serious . Then Cik Idah came over to pass her son's wedding invatation. Around 3.30pm, went off in my dad's car . To Paya Lebar first . Went to popular, got my stationery, ate at KFC, that's two meals . Wakled around, saw this pretty dress . Mum told me she'd get for me that dress in July ._______. Cause that's when she's gonna get her CPF . HAHAx ! So, 500 bucks goes to my bank, another 500 buck, all to myself ! Retail theraphy baybeeee . Then headed to TKC, watched some roadshow, ADI RAHMAN ! HAHAx, and I caught a glimpse off ... Alif Aziz Baybee . Looking as handsom as ever . But we went off when he started singing, no wonder it rained today. Soooo, bused to Bedok inter . Purchased my jeans at Giordano, ate Mee Rebus, and that would be three meals . Ass lar, change timetable again ._____. The current timetable was perfect . Why go change it ? Idiots . Now, DnT on freakin' Monday, spoil only -.- Gosssssssssh, no more recess with Upper Sec . Tomorrow Track & Field Meet . 4x100m, die die must get top 3 . In short, third place . I got third place for HIGH JUMP, hahax ! Not very good though . I've gtg, see you next week guys/girls/homo/gays/lesbians. XOXO, Mistika {: Currently, listening to SunShine - The All American Rejects, Chatting with -- Waiting for your call . Friday, March 27, 2009
I think he can see through everything but my heart . Urghh, SIS brought her laptop along . Daaaaaaamn . So stuck with this sucky computer which lags everytime I press an alphabet on the freakin' keyboard , all this love talk's getting me f*cked up . Sorry, was random . Today, the VIPs came to our school . had to present out MCIP board to them . Did pretty well, I talked a lot, like serious . Mr Wan then said " Good Job Mistika " . So I just said, " Okayy, Thank You " . and then he laughed . My phone's in my room, and I'm in the masters . Sooooo, I can't reply smses as soon as possible cause I'm too hooked up with this blogging process . My English's not getting any better . Iqa Melaty said I was fat, I was disheartened . But I didn't curse, cause it was true . But that was cause I was wearing a freakishly huge teee mid you ! I'm off, nothing else to blog about . People say I have untapped talent for netball . & that I should quit badminton . Well, I'm reconsidering ;D Sunday, March 22, 2009
Oh, how it kills me . Okay, I've decided to post . Hah, so what happened today Mistika ? Well, my dearest blog . Met up with the girls at Tampines Library . Was effing late, sorry ! The first thing they said was that I looked cute . Hah, since when have I not looked cute people ?! Pahamkan ajerlah . Then we headed for the open plaza, cause the librarians asked us to leave -.-" Good help's hard to find this days .. Went to sweettalk first to get my Oreo Crussssh . Walked to Famous Amos to get Bila's cookie, then went to the The Wallet Shop, to purchase my new pencil case ! It's effing gorgeous btw . Yellow ;D Then headed to Popular to get out stationery for tomorrow . School reopens btw . Umm, then headed to the Plaza . Bila has a credit card, unfair . Rich kid . Did English NPPA, while the rest did their Science NPPA . URGHH, no time to do -.- . After that, slacked around . Bought ice-kacang . Eat eat eat, told stories about camp . HAHAx, scandals and gossips . Untill like 1745 hours . Then set off for home, trained to Bedok with Bila, took 854 . Got home, admired my pencil box, did my prayers, started on my book review, followed by Maths assignment and then NPPA . Smsed a bunch of guys through the process of cramming ;D Decided to stop, cause bill's gonna explode -.-" So here I am, blogging . There's gonna be Unexpected Access later ! HEEEEE, can get to watch ! If I chose to that is . Monday Monday Monday . School's tomorrow, less computer time, more studying time . Urghh . Better buck up on my freaking Literature and English, English for sureeeee . I'm frekaing pisssed off at my repost card, I detest the sight of those two It just brings down my mooood . HAHAx . I have no more money . Please donate some to the: Association of Lazy Procrastinators Who Surprisingly Did Kinda Well For Term 1 , ( me! ) a.k.a , ALPQSDKWT . Oh wow . See you when I see you, tell me about about your holidays aites ? XOXO, Mistika {: I've got your runaway smile . Sorry for not updating -.-" CAMP yo . Yeah, and sorry to Tiara, Aqilah & Mutalif if I showed attitude in camp or whatever nonsense I showed . Sorry . Enjoyable camp though ! Hmm, I lost my pencil case during the flight from Vietnam -.- Going out to buy them later with the girls, YAY ! Nothing else to post, besides the camp lar . But I lazy lar -.-" I think that's be all . Curently listening to Fingerprints, Chatting with Shaaaafwan, Smsing Arif . P.S - It was all fated Shafwan, you were fated to be in the same group as her ;D HAHAx, camp gossip ;D Thursday, March 19, 2009
A month & one day . I'M BACK FORM SUNNY VIETNAM ! BAHAHAHAHAHAHx . I'd like to story tell about my experience there, but that'd just ruin your day . HAHx, but if you should know ... Syafiqah and Syaza are two people you should get bunked with ;D Vietnam was AWESOME . Although it was only 5 days . First day, woke up bright and early, at 4am . Went to the budget terminal . Waited for like 2 hours till departure . After that, sat in the airplane ! Wooh, first time . Was a bumpy ride to Vietnam . Reached the airport, bus-ed to Bad Dat Hotel . Unpacked everything and what not . Then bus-ed to the orphanage . They were so freaking adorable those children . URGHH . Took pictures . Fooled around . Had lunch . Then I forgot what happened . Had dinner, Indian . After that, went back to the hotel . Did reflections . bathed, Sleep . Second day, went supermarket to get stuff for the orphans. Shopped with Hakim and my room mates . Went back to the orphange . Did interaction, HOKEY POKEY ! HAHAs, it was fun . Everyone looked like they were enjoying themselves . Afterwhich, went to have lunch . Indian foood . Went to CuChi tunnels . HAH, reminded me of that inside joke . Then walked around the place, saw many interesting traps. The bomb crater was freakin' huge . I forgot where we went then . Had dinner . Went back to the hotel, bathed, sleep . Third day, R&R . Went to Mekong Delta ! Yes . Umm, sat on a boat . Went to t his place which sold fruits, tropical fruits . Fresh tropical fruits . Went to the coconut candy factory. Sat on a SAMPAN ! HAH, so fun . Enjoyable ride it was . I held a snake ! AHHH . I thought it'd be slimy, but it wasn't lar . Umm, had lunch . Went to watch the water puppet show . Was long, but enjoyable. Went to have dinner . Reflections at the hotel, went back to the room . Gossiped ;D HAHs, then slept at around 0115 Vietnam time , 0215 Singapore time . Fourth day, reported late . Kena punishment, wasn't allowed to go for the sightseeing . But Mr. Wan gave us chance, so in the end went sightseeing . Umm, went to the secondary school. Sat for the Maths Lesson . Didn't understand a thing . but just jot down the diagram . Played tug of war after that . First game, we lost . Second game, we won . Third game, we won ;D Pain is temporary, glory is forever . I fell down at one point . HAH . Went to lunch . Did reflection, cause we were late . Umm, had Indian again -.-" Went to war museum . First stop was the tiger cages . Freaked out man at how they tortured people . Scarry . Then, went to Notre Dame Cathedral , the post office next to it . Yeahh, I had no idea what it was called . WENT TO BEN THANH market to go shopping ! Bought loads of stuff . Teees, umm, clips, earrings, shades ! Yeahh . Had frozen yogurt . Lost my voice -.- Fifth day, went to another secondary school . Sat through an English & Maths class . YAY ! Understooded everything they were teaching . Went around the school, bid a do . Joel has a new girlfriend . Inside joke ;D Umm, went to a shopping mall . I don't know what's the use, since cause we have no more money . So went around . Played the piano at this music corner . HAHAx . Umm, after that bus-ed to airport . Sat on the plane to Sunny Singapore ! YEAHH, sister and mummy picked me up from there . Went to eat at Bedok yesterday . Slept at 2230 hours . Until 1330 hrs ;D Tired maah . So here I am now, IN SINGAPORE. Blogging as usual . I flunked Lit -.-" Stupid D7, & C6, it just spoils the whole report card . Oh yes , my report card . English : C6 Maths : A1 Science : A1 Mother Tongue : A1 Geography : A1 History : A1 Art : A2 D & T : A2 Literature : D7 .______. SEE what I mean by spoil ? Thursday, March 12, 2009
I'm screwed up . HAHAx, I made a deal with Alyssa, that if she stayback with me till four yesterday afternoon, I'd forget about A. for one week. & that deal I shall keep . Cancelling the two previous posts ;D Off to Vietnam in two days . Don't miss me too much ! That is all . Sunday, March 8, 2009
Mona Lisa Smile . My wound is not healing, I think it's cause my fingers can't stop peeling off the scab -.-" I'll be back to update ;D Heee, Have a Happy & joyful week people . Make every hour last aites ? Till then, I'll leave you guys to my rants ;} Piaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang -.- To hell with my Art HW ._______________. Urgggggggggh . To hell with Mr WET who can't teach Maths and keeps comparing secondary school children to big mature JC people and keeps dressing up in oversized shirts and with his small handwriting . I want Mr Yeo back . I want you back . Most importantly, You know who you are . Vegas Skies.  Some say love was not for sinners I believe it wasn't true Cause when I was finished sinning Love came down & showed me you . It's A SUNDAY . You've guessed it, It's the end of the freakin' week . If only, time could rewind . Then I'd undo all my mistakes . Just came home from three different places, Hougang, Bedok, & Pasir Ris . Hah, went to Hougang Community Club, attended a wedding, well, my dad did . Me & mummeh just sat in the car, listened to the radio, talked about a certain someone ;D Then went to Bedok, dad attended another wedding, me & mummeh sat in the car, continued to listen to the radio ;D Then set off for Pasir Ris . Went to my grandma's kenduri . Read some surahs, then ate . I was so hungry, I ate like, two plates of rice . That hungry, ate longan for dessert, watermelon . Played with my nephews, talked to my cousins/aunts/uncles. Everyone soon went home . After that, went to Joo Chiat, to make my specs, but didn't . Cause there weren't many varieties of spectacles to choose from ;D So decided to go to Tanjong Katong Complex, BUT ! My father got a paring ticket, so he lost his cool . He was so angry, then went home -.- Decided to go to the nearby optician near our place . Yeahh, so did my specs there, got new contact lenses ! Wearing them tomorrow, I guess . & Now, I have to go through this awful torment called my father's singing . It's some sort of way to relieve anger I guess . Yeahh . My dad is way better than yours ! HAHAx . I'm not the only one in this sucky situation, right Dianah ? HEEEx, yeahh . Saturday, March 7, 2009
I love A.  Please talk . You know who you are . I love A. Hah, had to post on a separate, post, cause the previous one was creating an uproar . HAHAx . Elida wants lime green FBTs so badly . I will buy for you lar ! No worries . If Vietnam sells them, that is ;D I keep making typo errors -.- My spelling, horrible I tell you . I've not completed my art HW yet . How dreadful ART has become -.- URGHH, better make sure I don't go to 3E5 next year . Not that its a bad thing . Just don't want ART as an option to score marks in for GCE . Friendster's sickening I tell you ! I couldn't care less [: I love A. I'll trigger a landslide . says: Elida .. huh ? yes ??? I got lime green FBTs ;D HAH ! DAMMIT LAAAAA HAHAx . U DIE ON MONDAY == DIE I TELL YOU WHAT ! LOL . Just because I have LIME GREEN FBTs ! LOL . joking rite relax la Just play along .. LOL . I love A. I'm searching for excuses to talk to you . My. Specs. Need. To. Get. Repaired. I asked my Dad whether I could get new ones, he said I should get contacts . Unbelievable . So, yeahh, getting contacts . Thought of getting them today, but I don't know lehh . Coax my dad . Hah, such a spoilt brat . I've this urge to change my blogskin, but good blogskins are hard to come by this days . Where are all that is good & mighty ! HAHAHAxs . I kinda regretted, not joining a UG group . Hah, was so focused on NCC. But! there wasn't any for girls in this school . Saddening, isn't it ? My wound on my left knee, its producing some kind of sap . Which hardens after a few minutes. & It oozes out in bubbles. No joke, and trickles it's way down my calves. Woah, my literacy rocks ! & yet, I flunk Lit . Note : don't take Lit as a elective next year .    found these somewhere online . just forgotten where i found it . trying hard to remember, like how i'm trying hard to forget about you . I love A. It's midnight darling, & I'm still so into you .  Friday, March 6, 2009
I love A. I told you I'd be back, sooner or later . Let's see, what happened today . Had four FREAKIN' periods of D&T, where I got completely ignored by Mr Sng, pfffft. Wanna do the product also, troublesome old man -.- After which, CME, discussed with group ;D RECESS ! Ate with Ben . Was trying to make SOMEONE jealous, I don't know whether he noticed . Look who's the desperate one ;D [ In case you're wondering, I was talking about myself being the desperate one ;D ] . Walked with Ben up to class . So far, Cheryl, Fara, Michelle, Michelle's friends asked me whether I was with BEN. For the last time people, I'm not with Benjamin Jethro Neo . yeahh, read it . Mr Syafiq's lesson was next. We found his weak spot . Did newspaper article, talk talk talk, asked asked asked, chit chat, argued with SEAN ! Serious lar, he's getting on everyone's nerves . My gosh, get a life dude . Went to change, went down to play netball, that's when I got sooooo mad. I was trying to shoot the netball into the net lar . Then it didn't get in, & he laughed. I lost myself, I shouted at him . Think what ?! So what if you're in the basketball team ?! Were you the captain ?! I DON'T THINK SO ! So I suggest you shut it idiot ! After English, it was Maths, did assignment on foolscap . Maths used to be my favourite sub, now, my least favourite sub. How school stinks -.-" After school, went to Pizza Hut, was a blast, became broke. I'm not fulfilling my resolution -.-" Haiz, Mistika Mistika . You know what, I've been contemplating about the future . How the Sec One orientation would be like, how I'm gonna be OGL/CGL & how I know everyone's gonna love me ;D HAHAHAsx, that part, not so true . How I'm gonna conduct MORNING EXERCISE & that it's gonna be torturous ! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH, & how my class's gonna rock . Think so far, not really actually . If you think about it , It's less than a year away till Sec Threeeee . WOOOOOOH, and yes, I've been wondering who'd be the next batch of student councilors . Hah ! Can Hao Lian in front of them ;D My Gosh he's beautiful, I'll pray for a miracle . Oh how it kills me, If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie . Cause I'm too afraid to tell the truth, Too afraid of how people might think, Too afraid of what people might say . This girl's wasting her time on you, After what you did to her . After all those hardship you put her through . She still loves you . Pondering about what you'd be thinking, Every night & day, Every second of every hour, Pondering, whether you still have feelings for her . Whether you did the right thing, Breaking her heart , Leaving her to cry in the dark, Without you knowing, Without a soul trying, Trying to cure her disease, The disease called you . You, brought her to her knees . You, made her the person she is today . You, made her realise, That somethings are worth waiting for . It's been one week, Self-inflicted wounds all over her heart, Slashed & burned, whilst reminiscing about Those times when we were both oh so young Oh so young, & madly in love . Blinded . I'm sorry . I'm foolish to have fell for you . Hello people of the world ;D IT'S A FRIDAAAAAY. YAY, back from school, was playing netball ;D Hah, fun . Currently chatting with Naseha, my junior. Hafiz's friend . What a small small world . She's in track & field, piang . Lucky . Hah, today was funny. People thought that I was with Ben . When Ben is already attached to Florence . I think I should, back away . Hah, don't get to intimate . Woooooh, SCANDAL ! Then during recess, Bila was trying to block my view of him, Everyone made my day today, thank you oh so very much ;D & now, currently chatting with Hafiz . Chatting with Sec ones are fun . && Now, currently talking to Hanis on the phone. Maan, multi-tasking sure is fun . I cried in the rain yesterday . So emotional . Hah, must snap myself out of it . Will blog tomorrow, or later ;D Since my sister's not in SINGAPORE and she didn't bring along her LAPTOP ! I have the whole device to myself for three days ! WOOOOOH . Sunday, March 1, 2009
I am all extreme .  WHAT?! It's a Sunday, I think I deserve a chance to post more than two times today . Mind you, I'm bored, with nothing to do at home and less things to do outdoors, since, there's a downpour every freaking hour -.- I'm telling you, Friendster's suckish can . Sheesh, how can they even make money ? Wait, are they even making money ? Questions I ponder about . I just went to the MaMa shop just now . Bought RUFFLES ! and MOO ICE-CREAM! and ROTI . * LOL * Yehh, it did put me out of my misery, & made me gain weight -.- Like seriously, I think my hips are growing exponentially . That reminds me, I wanna go jogging tomorrow ;D Every Monday, new routine . Go jogging . For endurance, and to show off my sexaye legsxsxsx . Yeahhh baybehh . Strike the sexaye legs part, it's not true . Is Milo considered a type of chocolate ? Since, it is made out of cocoa . I mean, yeahh, that's how you get the chocolate-y taste, right ? Which reminds me, it's been century's since I ate Cocoa Crunch ! Like seriously, & Honey Stars . How commercially endorsed breakfast cereals can bring back childhood memories . I'm going off now, think I should get some sleep ;D Yeahh right . Sleep, pffft . Well, nights people. Won't be updating till, what, Thursday ? Friday ? I don't know . XOXO Let's see, what shall I start my day with tomorrow ? I'm not over you . The All American Rejects, the best band that could cheer me up . Hah, heart-breaking melodies , They serenade to me . I have this thought of cutting me hair . But I also have this thought of keeping it long . Girls with long well-primped hair make me jealous . Hnphh, unfair . Maybe I just don't have the time to keep my hair as well-primped as them . Oh well, what's life without barriers ? Crappy shit . Cody : Have you seen my Science book Zack : What does is look like ? Cody : Like yours except its opened . LOL . Hilarious . Believe it or not, I had a crush on Cody . But mind you, I was a foolish girl back then, & I still am now . WTH, it's raining . I'm serious, if I don't find any new songs to listen to I'm gonna suffer . Haven't I suffered enough ?! Just had my mum's famous Crab cooked in Laksa gravy ;D OMGosh, heavenly . The best dish to put me out of my misery . Thank You MAAAA . FYI, I AIN'T DEPRESSED NO MORE ! Yeahhh . Having this urge to use my polaroid camera, take some snapshots of random stuff . Maybe tomorrow, during school . If I seriously having nothing else to do . 'Cause that's basically my purpose in life, waste my parents money ;D HAHAHAHA, kidding people! Currently chatting with Rasyid, listening to Hello Hello by Hayley Williams . How Sundays remind me of you . I still haven't return my mum's $15.90 back . I owe her, for buying me that Orange Nike Water Bottle she calls , " Flask " . Yeahh, his new name, " Flask " . Craazy woman . I can't wait for Sec Two Adventure camp . No, I can't wait for VIETNAM ! Yeahh . I even made a list of what to buy . OMGosh, how well-planned I got ;D THINGS TO GET ;D - FBT shorts, as many pairs as I can get . - Tee-Shirts, for myself, and friends ;D - Takraw, for the guys, and myself - Flip-flops . - Sneakers - FBT jerseys, if there is any FBT products . - Fruits ! Healthy, Clean, FRUITS ! and some other stuff . That I can't think of . Too busy listening to my favourite song ;D I still love you sayang . BUT ! as a friend ;} read it, picture it . Cause it's over . I'm over him, unofficially . I'm getting there . No worries people, I'll be alright . Heck, I am alright . I'll be back to my morning . You'll see, you'll all see ! I'm running out of songs to listen to -.- Man, tragic tragic tragic . It's a Sunday already, how time flies . I'm surprised I'm not bruised from yesterday's training, oh JOY ! Next training's on Tuesday, please please please rain . I have nothing on tomorrow, 'cept for CD informal training . I don't know whether I'm going or not . If Hafiz going, then I go . Can kacau my juniors . I know, I'm not in CD, yet, I'm going for their training . Like some KPO like that . They ask me to come what, it's not like I was uninvited or anything of that sort . I have manners people ! I ask first . Oh yes, RACHEL ! Thank you for keeping me company through the phone on Thursday . I will eat chocolate and think about you . Hah . But I'm not gonna stuff myself with those chocolate bars till I grow exponentially, just till I'm satisfied, Or when my lips go numb and clammy ;D - Raise your glass high . |
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