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M istika, I turned fifteen. I'm an optimist, but it wouldn't hurt for me to be a lil' bit pessimistic. Yes, I'm abnormal, period.
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Sunday, August 30, 2009
you deserve to be treated more than right For just one night. Its currently 0459hours in the morning on a kinda-chilly Sunday morning. I have religious in approximately 10 hours time. I don't Friday, August 28, 2009
another day of the week. [c=38][CoS][c=45]<553>[/c][c=37]Lieutenant Dennis HotSauce[/c][/c] [s]The Self-Abhorrent[/s] says: (8:02:17 PM) i tell you tune your guitar dowan [c=38][CoS][c=45]<553>[/c][c=37]Lieutenant Dennis HotSauce[/c][/c] [s]The Self-Abhorrent[/s] says: (8:02:21 PM) tsk see lah Mistika, says: (8:02:43 PM) I tune already ar. [c=38][CoS][c=45]<553>[/c][c=37]Lieutenant Dennis HotSauce[/c][/c] [s]The Self-Abhorrent[/s] says: (8:02:54 PM) lol sad [c=38][CoS][c=45]<553>[/c][c=37]Lieutenant Dennis HotSauce[/c][/c] [s]The Self-Abhorrent[/s] says: (8:03:02 PM) i thought can play bass for you [c=38][CoS][c=45]<553>[/c][c=37]Lieutenant Dennis HotSauce[/c][/c] [s]The Self-Abhorrent[/s] says: (8:03:16 PM) then i cannot find my g-string X( I swear, that cracked me up. I didn't talk for for more than, at least 30 minutes I guess in the afternoon. And I swear, again, everything seemed so, seriously, mundane. Really! Okay, maybe not. Due to some people's chatters, the whole world began to "volume up". Pfffffttt. The day seemed so short, despite being a Friday and we got released like, two minutes earlier thanks to Miss Zhou ^^v. Lit had never been so interesting. I'm not taking Lit hor! I sent in my combination(s) already. Bio/Chem/SSH/Geography/*Art (if I do get into E5, I pray not) I'm deprived of my own CCA. OMG. Okay, honestly, I don't know what that sentence I just typed actually defines. Thursday, August 27, 2009
your life and mine. It feels like, everything's finally fine. Sorry for the absence, but I'm pretty sure you didn't miss me at all. I am proud to say, that I am able to construct better Malay and English sentences from this very moment in time. * Applauds! * Yeah, English lessons really do help. And Mother Tongue too. Had rehearsal today. (L) was sweet enough to wait for me, when he was supposed to go home. Our dance, is cocked up. We spent time teaching the Sec Twos who didn't turn up for the past two rehearsals. Me and Bila were practically venting out anger on them. Hahaha. Sorry, but yeah. She was, pissed. I can tell. I know her, we have, orangetooth :D Don't pay us no mind. OMG. I'm such a poser. Nevermind, pay no attention to me. Yes, I found some interestesting stories today. Oh! My Baby-G watch is synchronised with the school bell! Hi-five Beela! List of songs I know how to play on the guitar, confidently: I'm yours, Your call, A lonely September, Butterfly Flyaway. Sunday, August 23, 2009
let me light up the sky. I need a guitar casing, badly. I figured, I need to come up with a way to keep myself occupied during recess if I'm not going down anymore for approximately one month due to us Muslims fasting. CONCLUSION! Bring TUNED guitar to school and serenade when possible. With the exceptional case of thunder and a heavy downpour during the day due to a certain someone's horrible and utterly despicable singing. Who knows ? Some people are so full of themselves. I am not fond of these people. Saturday, August 22, 2009
when darkness turns to light. Happy Birthday Faried! You all know I'm an emotional wreck right. So, its no surprise then I cry often at home, and in school and occasionally, in the bus. So, I apologise if I freak people out with my crying and my mood swings. Yeah, so its the first day of Ramadhan. Yay! Yesterday didn't get to spend the time with (L) privately. But he was with me the whole afternoon in the hall practising for Teachers' Day. I am beat, despite the four hour sleep I had this afternoon. Currently chatting on the phone with (L), while he is out, circling around Masjid Gufran, I think. Wednesday, August 19, 2009
less clicking, more scrolling. Leave the signal red. I have submitted my subject combination(s). And I pray I don't get into a triple science class. Please, may it be SSH/Geography/Bio/Chem. Oh, I suddenly got the feeling I chose the wrong subjects (O.O) Whatever happens, happens. I shall pray, very hard that I don't fail my Geography at the end of the year. I think, I think too much. Tuesday, August 18, 2009
i'm finding it hard to resist.  I suddenly got news from Elena/Shi Li, that I had the settle the performance by this Friday, my IPW's/Maths NPPA's/Malay NPPA's incomplete, I still have to stay back everyday for either training or rehearsals, I literally and theoratically have pains in my neck and especially my ass, I don't have a proper schedule for my tests and after-school activities, I am apparently getting on people's nerves, they are getting on my nerves, I have less than 72 hours to enjoy life before I go on and fast without having to eat for almost 13 hours each day for a month, I still have to attend training during fasting month, I got councilors who don't listen which includes me I shall admit, I'm confused, I am getting pop-up ads everytime I visit my blog, I am losing out in a lot of things like my studies and social life, I am beginning to feel so isolated from civilisation all of a sudden, I am also beginning to hate and for those who know me inside out, I don't hate, I have no time for myself or my friends or my family, I have to resort to coming home after seven everyday, skipping my prayers and I don't like skipping prayers, I feel guilty whenever I see Mr Ang walking pass me cause I've been skipping training for more than 2 months, I have yet to submit my Sec-Three Subject Combinations, when the problem is, I don't know which subjects I should pick, I've been avoiding people I know and mingle with just because I have that stupid mentally that they changed when in real fact, they did no such thing, and it's been me, me all along. I can finally and officially conclude, I am a complete failure to all socialites on this Earth. Monday, August 17, 2009
but tonight I'm alone. I still want you close. I hate it when my nose keeps oozing out mucus. It's freaking irritating, stupid swimming lessons. Drank god knows amount of chlorine water (O.O) Had to cough and burp after one lap just to get through to the next one. And I almost drowned :O Yes, I think I did. In the middle of my back stroke, I wanted to take in air. I took in the clorine water instead. I know, tragic! Well, at least I felt better after getting to meet (L) after swimming lessons, and not to forget in the morning ^^. Yesteday was hilarious. I shall not ramble ^^. Teeeheee. I had a heart to heart talk with Lesmin today. She's a great listener ^^. Sunday, August 16, 2009
Uncanny. Anywhere, say anywhere As long as I'm with you Anything, ask anything We'll watch the world go by Anywhere, say anywhere As long as I'm with you Anything, ask anything We'll watch the world. -Anberlin. Saturday, August 15, 2009
you told me I needed space. It's official, I am done with my HE coursework. Yes arh! But, I'm not suppose to stop here. I still have ...
I caviled to my mum and dad about my subject teachers. They wanted to speak to my principal about this matter, but I told them to save their breath, cause I'm pretty sure it's not gonna make a difference. I just have to, cope with all this complex changes. I just remembered something, we start fasting next Saturday! That's, really fast. And and and! I found the perfect kebaya for Hari Raya! Just, today, at Joo Chiat Complex [: It's off-white with orange flowers embroidered on it. I'm not fussy anymore ^^v. It would usully be a drag for my parents and sister to go kebaya hunting every month. Serious.. And I think I'm going out again tomorrow, better finish up all my assignments by Monday morning. (L) is currently, listing down the benefits of stress O.O I had to help him come up with, cheem words ^^v. Then again, how in the world does stress benefit you ?! Friday, August 14, 2009
i'm running out of words to say. As long as I'm with you. I am so, freaking lost. In like, everything. Maths, my social life, studies, CCA, council. I don't know who's who anymore, and I don't know what the hell is going on. Everything and everybody's slowly changing, and no doubt that I am too. I'm going to probably get a D for my CCA grade, cause I keep skipping training. Mr Wong's not teaching us anymore, and we'll probably gonna fail Maths too. And just when we thought that Mr Wong couldn't teach, look who comes along, taking over Maths period, four days a week. You know what, we are all losing it, gradually becoming mindless nincompoops. Thursday, August 13, 2009
so kiss me like you did. So just stay with me now. Okay, so Had Teachers' Day auditions today. Councillors are gonna do the hoedown throwdown during Teachers' Day! I know Seri wants to do it very very badly, that I'm certain of. I wanna do it to! Haha, but we would have to teach them how to dance [: Hakim Curly was like, so lost doing the dancesteps. And when we danced along with the song, he immediately gave up, cause the tempo of the song was.... really fast. (L) sent me home after school, had a heart to heart talk, watching the sun set under some block near my place. Was kinda romantic, I guess. Discussed about problems we couldn't handle, stuff like that. Honestly, I don't know who my friends are no more. Monday, August 10, 2009
time is racing, slow it down.  You are a war, worth dying for tonight. I've got nothing to say, except that I am hungry. What?! I didn't have any money, cause I spent all of them on stationery at Popular this afternoon. Went to Bedok Reservoir with (L) and took a long walk, talking about our own future [: It was a heart-warming discussion, and I melted most of the time, mostly because of the things he told me. Awwwwwww, and his mother is seriously hilarious! Haha. Spent last night chatting on the phone with (L) also, he asked me to sing to keep me awake. So I sang, mostly Hey Monday songs. Haha. And I finally sang KANTOI in front of him. Usually, he would just shut me off whenever I start singing the first line. P.S: Pokka Milk Tea is nice [: I should have worn something breathable just now. Sunday, August 9, 2009
we're only here for one more night.  I've not been posting on a daily basis. Haha, I have, but not properly. It's always pictures and then some random quote from random songs. Team bonding at East Coast yesterday. Bowling! Brought my DSLR along, Tiara asyik nak pakai jer. Haha. Yeah, not a lot of pictures. Cause got no time to take/nothing nice to take/was busy. Haha. And also cause I left early, right after Khairul . Played captain's ball byt the beach, and volleyball at some point with the Sec Ones. The irony (: Was enjoyable, then decided to take a long walk to the bus stop. Haha, I was impatient to wait for bus 401. So, I took underpass to the other side, walked alone till I reached the bus stop. Had my songs to keep me company throughout the journey, and (L)'s company through the phone. He was practically killing himself, cause I was alone the whole day. Well, most parts of the day. Fast forward, we talked from 10:30pm till 3:00am in the morning, or later. I can't remember. At some point of the conversation, we fell asleep and hung up on each other without us knowing .__. Creeepy. Most probably meeting (L) tomorrow, I guess. Study date [: And he wants to tell me something. Haha, it's said to be hilarious. My contact lenses are ready to be collected ! Yay ! I can be random at times, I know. I miss a ton load of people. See what I mean by random ? Saturday, August 8, 2009
stay young. First off, Happy Birthday Mr. Kenny Tan! Happy Birthday Huiwen! May all your wishes come true. Old people need to mind their own business. Friday, August 7, 2009
you are my only one.  Berlari-lari ku mencarimu, musim berlalu. Hati gunda, tiada terhingga. Thursday, August 6, 2009
angels with dirty faces. Here are the list of things that I want to be with (L). I don't wanna lose (L). I miss (L). I wanna scream my lungs out. My camera is like, not being used. I had Tom Yum, and I didn't finish it. My sister's going off for KL. I miss (L). The Caramel Frapp from Coffee Bean™ is giving me bad tummy aches ;( Wednesday, August 5, 2009
broken records.  I'd like to fly into your arms one day. Nothing much happened, teachers' day auditions were canceled. I'm having doubts in myself, I'm skipping training like nobody's business, I don't seem to give a fuck about others no more, I'm not studying for my HE test cause I don't see the bloody point, my sister and my dad are creating an uproar over stupid directions to a bloody food court from yesterday, I have C.I tomorrow with full u. dress rehearsal and I don't seem give a fuck about others no more. I suck like hell ;( Monday, August 3, 2009
I am invisible, and I am wet.  If only time could repeat itself, then I wouldn't want to regret losing you. I shall blog, properly today. I don't know what happened for the past, fourteen hours or so. Lessons/swimming/eat/rest/bathe/karangan and 30 minutes with (L). Spent one period in English scribbling lyrics to random songs on a piece of foolscap paper. Mrs Teng didn't suspect a thing with me and Florence. Scribbled, lyrics to four songs. I can't really remembered which songs. My baad. After swimming, bumped into Kohwee and had a mini arguement with (L) about the silliest of things. Bus ride with Beelaa. Finally! After a century of bus rides with the strangest of people, I get to go home with Beeelaa today. We're drifting apart! Haha. Hope not [: I'm done. That's my definition of a "proper post". It's Mistika, go figure. Sunday, August 2, 2009
My thoughts are so tempting.  The only demure rose amongst a bunch of prickly thorns. Saturday, August 1, 2009
Nothing can save me.  We can't stop the world, but there's so much more that we could do. You can't stop this girl, from falling more in love with you. |
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Let's runaway now
let's go away to some place safe. |
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